In the hours prior to the shooting in Isla Vista Elliot Rodger uploaded several videos on youtube. Following are their transcripts.
Why do girls hate me so much?[edit | edit source]
Hey, Elliot Rodger here. I'm up in the hills in Montecito right now. It's truly a beautiful day, but, as I've always said, a beautiful environnment is the darkest hell, if you have to experience it all alone. And sadly I've been alone for a very long time. I've been attending college in Santa Barbara for about 2 1/2 years now. And in those 2 1/2 years I've experienced nothing but loneliness and misery. And my problem is girls. There's so many beautiful girls here, but none of them give me a chance, and I don't know why. I don't know why you girls are so repulsed by me. It doesn't make sense. I do everything I can to appear attractive to you. I dress nice. I'm sophisticated and magnificent. I have a nice car, a BMW. Well, nicer than 90% of the people in my college. Ehm, you know, I'm polite, I am the ultimate gentleman, and yet you girls never give me a chance. I don't know why. You know, I- I... put a lot of effort into dressing nice. These sunglasses here are worth $300. Giorgio Armani. So, I put 'em on. See. Hold on, car. (car passes by) See. Look at how fabulous I look.
You know, I feel so invisible as I walk through my college, because none of the girls there pay attention to me. I see so many beautiful, blond-haired... just so many beautiful, blond-haired girls are walking around everywhere in your revealing shorts, your cascading blond hair, you pretty faces, and I want one for a girlfriend. I wanna take a girl out for a date and prove to her that I'm worthy. I wanna feel that sense of being worthy of a girl's love and affection. I'm 22 years old and I've never had a girlfriend. I'm still a virgin. I've never had the pleasure of having sex with a girl, of sleeping with a girl, kissing a girl. I've never even held a girl's hand. Hell, I don't even have a, a young girl's phone number in my cellphone. And that's just such an injustice, because I am so magnificent. I deserve girls much more than all those slobs I see at my college who are somehow able to walk around with beautiful girls. I mean, even in the college town that I stay in during my semesters, as I walk around the common areas of this town, or areas where all the college partys happen, I see these obnoxious guys walking with beautiful girls. And that pisses me off, because I should be the one with the girls. I mean, look at me, I'm gorgeous, but you girls don't see it. I don't understand why you- you are so repulsed by me. Why won't you give me a chance? It's ridiculous.
The other day I was doing some grocery shopping at Trader Joe's and I was of course all alone, as I always am, which makes me feel so miserable, anyway, (sighs) I was doing my shopping and I see this- this disgusting looking loser, well, he's a loser in my opinion, and he walks in with these two beautiful blond girls at his side. I couldn't believe my eyes, I was so insulted by that, because I should be the one with the girls. But you never give me a chance. If you just give me a chance and get to know me you'll see that I am worthy of you, because I am. Tsk. Unbelievable.
I mean, this world is so beautiful, but (sighs) it's so sad and depressing when I have to experience it all alone and I have to watch other guys able to walk around and enjoy their lives with beautiful girlfriends at their side. I can only imagine how amazing their sex-lives must be. I've never had any sex, or any- anything like that. It's such an injustice. I don't know why you girls hate me so much. I've always wished I can ask you this and this is my way I'm asking you this. This is the only way I can ask you.
Life is so unfair because girls dont want me[edit | edit source]
Hey, Elliot Rodger here. I'm just sitting in my car right now after watching the beautiful sunset descend beyond that hill up there, enjoying a nice vanilla latte. (drinks) Oh yeah, that's nice. Makes me feel all pumped up. (sighs) I've been doing a lot of thinking about how sad and unfair my life has been, all because girls haven't been attracted to me. (sighs) I've been going through college for 2 1/2 years now, and in those 2 1/2 years I've had to rot in bleak and sad loneliness, while other guys get to enjoy all the pleasures of, you know, sex, and socializing, and partying. I've never had a taste of that, because no girl's given me a chance. No girl at my college has ever expressed ANY interest in me. When you give a chance to all these stupid, obnoxious guys that I see, I see you walking with, you don't give a chance to me. Why not? I'm, I'm such a magnificent guy. I'm beautiful. You can't deny that. I've travelled all over the world, I've so much to talk about. I'm civilized, intelligent, sophisticated. I have a sense of style, and yet you girls don't see it. (sighs)
And every single day I have to be insulted by the sight of all these lesser men walking around with beautiful girls. I see so many couples where the guy is just so unworthy of having a beautiful girlfriend like that, and yet they are together. He has her love, and I've never had any of that love and affection from girls. Why do you girls give those guys a chance, but not me? I deserve it more. It's not fair. Every single day I have to be insulted by the sight of guys enjoying girls, while I'm all alone. Even watching that sunset up there (sighs) is a bittersweet experience, because while I love the peaceful beauty of it I can't help but think of all the other guys who get to enjoy that same sunset with a beautiful girlfriend at their side, while I'm sitting here all alone in my car. There's no beautiful girl in that passenger seat to enjoy it with me. because you girls have something against me. I don't know what it is. (sighs)
Whenever I drive through this college town called Isla Vista which is just right next to UCSB I see so many hot, beautiful, blond girls walking with absolute stupid, obnoxious looking douchebags, and I just can't help but think how wrong that is. Those beautiful blond girls should be walking with me, not those brutes. I deserve them more. Why do those horrible men get to experience the love and affection of such beautiful, heavenly girls, while I've had to rot in loneliness all my life. It's not fair. It's such an injustice. I don't understand you girls, it's like your sexual attraction is flawed. It's perverted. You are attracted to the wrong kind of guy. You should be attracted to guys like me. Beautiful, magnificent guys. This world is so twisted and so cruel, and you girls make it cruel. And you girls have starved me of sex and enjoyment and pleasure for my entire youth. You've taken eight years away from my life, eight years I'll never get back. Do you know how much misery you've caused me? I'm such a nice guy, why won't you give me a chance?
Balcony Vlog, reminiscing about childhood[edit | edit source]
Hey, Elliot Rodger here. Today it’s April 7th, 2014. Just admiring the view from my father’s house right now, and boy, what a lovely day it is, not a cloud in the sky. I can hear some kids playing down there. When I hear those sounds, it reminds me of the days of my childhood. Those were the best times of my life. (sighs) I wish I could be a kid again. Those were the happy years. And I could just live my life without realizing how cruel the world really is.
Life is so much fairer when you’re a kid. I mean, when you’re a kid you don’t have to worry about, you know, things like, being attractive, or how many girls like you. No one has unfair advantages. And then, when you hit puberty, your life either becomes heaven on earth, or a living hell; it all depends on how many girls like you, or if girls like you at all. (laughs) My life turned into a living hell. No girls liked me, and I hate them all for it.
My reaction to seeing a young couple at the beach, Envy[edit | edit source]
Hey, Elliot Rodger here. I'm just sitting in my car right now enjoying the view of the beach. And my view has been ruined by this sight right here. In front of me, sitting right there on that bench, is a young couple, I presume about my age. (sighs) I was enjoying such a nice view until they came and sat down and started kissing. This- this is the reason why life isn't fair. Why does that guy get to have such a beautiful girlfriend, while I'm all alone? Why? Why can't I experience something like that right there?
They're kissing right now. It's torturous for me to watch, but I have to do this. I have to film this. I have to show the world why life isn't fair. I have to show everyone why I hate the world, because no girl did do this with me. Look at them. He's in heaven right now, sitting on this beautiful beach with his beautiful girlfriend, kissing her, feeling her love, while I'm sitting here all alone, because no beautiful girl wants to be my girlfriend. I hate them. I hate them so much. Why does he deserve to get that experience and not me. (sighs) I can only imagine the heavenly things they'll be doing together when they go back home tonight. I'm sure they'll be having sex. (sighs) What will I be doing? Lie in my bed alone with no one, because no one wants me. I bet he goes to the same college as me. (sighs) If he gets to experience his college life with his beautiful blond girlfriend and I have to suffer this miserable loneliness. It's not fair! Life is not fair.
Elliot Rodger, Lonely Vlog, Life is so unfair[edit | edit source]
Hey, Elliot Rodger here, standing at the golf course. Though I don't actually play golf, I only come here to admire the whole beauty and serenity of the place. It's truly spectacular. This is one of the few places where I can come and truly have a- a sense of escape. It's my place of refuge. Look at how marvelous it is. Provides a spectacular view of the mountains... and on the other side... you can see the ocean from here. Absolutely beautiful. This world is such a beautiful place. It's such a tragedy that I've had to live, you know, such a pathetic life in it, all because of the cruelty of humanity and women. (Walks towards car) I always come here to watch the sunset. This is my usual sunset spot, mainly because there's rarely any young couples here that I would get jealous of. And I love this walk right down the parking lot towards the setting sun. It's my last enjoyment in life. I can't enjoy anything else. My life is so lonely and mundane. I have no friends, no girlfriends, no love, no sex. All I have is this. Being able to walk in beautiful places like this. (sighs) It really calms my mind.
Right here, this is where I park to watch the sunset. (Films mirror image in car) Oh, check it out. There's me, in all my fabulousness. Oh yeah. Elliot Rodger. (laughs) I am so awesome. (Gets into car) Here we are. The best view of the place. Just look at that. I mean, this world is so marvelous, full of beautiful places like this and yet, all I can do is just sit by myself and admire them. I'm not allowed to enjoy life in this world, all because I've been cast out. No one likes me. No one accepts me. All my life I've been struggling to fit in with the popular kids. I've been struggling to get a girlfriend. No one, no one has ever accepted me. It's so sad. I can't enjoy life in this world anymore. Every time I go out I always have to see these young couples and I get jealous of them. They remind me of e- of exactly what I'm missing out in life. Sex, love, companionship. I desire those things. I'm- I desire girls. I'm sexually attracted to girls. But girls are not sexually attracted to me. There's a major problem with that. A major problem. That's a problem that I intend to rectify. (laughs) I, in all my magnificence and power, I will not let this fly. It's an injustice that needs to be dealt with.
Elliot Rodger's Retribution[edit | edit source]
Hi, Elliot Rodger here. Well, this is my last video. It all has to come to this. Tomorrow is the day of retribution. The day in which I will have my revenge against humanity. Against all of you. For the last 8 years of my life, ever since I've hit puberty, I've been forced to endure an existence of loneliness, rejection, and unfulfilled desires. All because girls have never been attracted to me. Girls gave their affection, and sex, and love, to other men, but never to me. I'm 22 years old and I'm still a virgin. I've never even kissed a girl. I've been through college for two and a half years, more than that actually, and I'm still a virgin. It has been very torturous. College is the time when everyone experiences those things such as sex, and fun, and pleasure. But in those years I've had to rot in loneliness. It's not fair. You girls have never been attracted to me. I don't know why you girls aren't attracted to me, but I will punish you all for it. It's an injustice, a crime, because I don't know what you don't see in me. I'm the perfect guy, and yet you throw yourselves at all these obnoxious men, instead of me, the supreme gentleman. I will punish all of you for it. (laughs)
On the day of retribution I am going to enter the hottest sorority house of UCSB and I will slaughter every single spoiled, stuck-up, blonde slut I see inside there. All those girls that I've desired so much, they would've all rejected me and looked down upon me as an inferior man, if I ever made a sexual advance towards them, while they throw themselves at these obnoxious brutes. I'll take great pleasure in slaughtering all of you. You will finally see that I am in truth the superior one. The true alpha male. (laughs) Yes, after I've annhilated every single girl in the sorority house, I'll take to the streets of Isla Vista, and slay every single person I see there. All those popular kids who live such lives of hedonistic pleasure, while I've had to rot in loneliness for all these years, they've all looked down upon me every time I tried to go out and join them. They've all treated me like a mouse. Well now, I will be a God compared to you. You will all be animals. You are animals, and I will slaughter you like animals. I will be a God, exacting my retribution, on all those who deserve it. And you do deserve it, just for the crime of living a better life than me. All you popular kids. You've never accepted me, and now you all pay for it.
And girls, all I've ever wanted was to love you, and to be loved by you. I've wanted a girlfriend, I've wanted sex, I've wanted love, affection, adoration, but you think I'm unworthy of it. That's a crime that can never be forgiven. If I can't have you, girls, I will destroy you. (laughs) You denied me a happy life, and in turn, I will deny all of you life. (laughs) It's only fair. I hate all of you, humanity is a disgusting, wretched, depraved species. If I had it in my power, I would stop at nothing, to reduce every single one of you to mountains of skulls and rivers of blood, and rightfully so. You deserve to be annhilated. And I'll give that to you. You never showed me any mercy, and so I will show you none. (laughs) You forced me to suffer all my life, and now I'll make you all suffer. I've waited a long time for this. I'll give you exactly what you deserve. All of you. All you girls who rejected me and looked down upon me and, you know, treated me like scum, while you gave yourselves to other men. And all of you men for living a better life than me. All of you sexually active men, I hate you, I hate all of you! I can't wait to give you exactly what you deserve - utter annihilation. (laughs) I am so god-like